Tuesday, 30 March 2010

  • I'd really like to...

    So I made that list of places I'd like to travel to (see previous entry) and it made me want to make a list of things I'd like to do in general.  SO, without further ado I bring you my list of things that I should do/would like to do during my lifetime:

    1.) Marry my sweetheart and have a small, unbelievable wedding.  I'd actually like to elope but the families wouldn't be too happy with that so a small wedding wouldn't be bad.  I don't want a lot of big expensive things because it's the honeymoon that really matters and I'd rather make it amazing.

    2.) Have a baby and when it grows up actually be friends with it.  I never was the type of person who said, "I'm going to discipline my kids right so that they show me authority!"  I want my kid(s) to know I'm there for them wholeheartedly and that I want to be their friend.  I want to offer them guidance.  Not have them hate me and be afraid of me.  Yes, I want to help them make the right choices throughout their life, but I want them to see me as an equal instead of being a member of authority.

    3.) Learn to save money.  I'm really not awesome at saving money.  I spend my money on the dumbest things.  Things I don't need, things I don't really use, and I go out to eat a LOT.  This is one thing that definitely needs worked on.

    4.) Learn to Zen out.  I used to read up a lot on Buddhism and meditation.  I even use to do some yoga when I was home alone (otherwise I'd be made fun of!)  At that point I was starting to learn to calm myself down, and with it it calmed my BPD.  So, I'd like to go back to meditating on a daily basis and learning to be more pure.

    5.) Become fluent in French.  I LOVE the French language.  Actually, scratch that,  I love ALL THINGS FRENCH. So,  I want to become fluent in their language. 

    6.) Go back to college.  I don't know what for yet--but I do know I don't want to be an overnight stocker at Walmart for the rest of my life.

    7.) TRAVEL. Travel. and more TRAVEL.  I want to see the world starting with my own country.  I want to know more about cultures elsewhere.

    8.) Stay more in touch with my friends.  I haven't really seen anybody since graduation.  I'd like to see them before it gets too far past that they forget about me.  That's all.

    9.)  Read and write more  I like to write and I love to read.  There's something powerful about the knowledge you can gain from both. 

    10.) Be more charitable.  I use to donate to all those save the animal organizations but I haven't recently.  I really should learn to give more to others and think of myself less; isn't that what really matters?  Helping others?


    Basically,  I want to round myself out.  I want to be more open-minded.  I want to be more respected and likable.  Anyway, that's it.  Just wanted to create a quick entry.

  • Top 10

    I've decided to compile a list of places I'd like to see throughout my lifetime.  So, here are my top 10:



    1.) New Zealand-  What would be more amazing than traveling to a country so green and lush with beaches covered in white sand and water as blue as the sky? A place so undomesticated that sheep still free-roam?  The place where they filmed the Lord of The Rings trilogy (just sayin' )!!!  It's so picturesque and pure probably no where in the world can top it.


    2.) The Amazon Rainforest-  Something about the muggy almost unbearable weather of the rain forest kind of attracts me to it.  Not to mention the wildlife is abundant and the trees are the greenest of green.  It feels like a place that you could adventure to--a place where if you take a wrong turn you could be lost for hours.  I'd love to go just for the exploration and wildlife.  And while I'm there I'd like to take a Zip-line through the trees.  THAT would be amazing!

     
    3.) Lake Tahoe in the winter-  Well, this one doesn't make sense to me really seeing as how I hate snow.  I was watching some kind of television show with my dad a few months back and there were showing the absolutely posh life of celebrities and such that lived within the mountains of Lake Tahoe.  It was while I was watching that show that I decided Lake Tahoe was just beautiful in the wintertime.  So, I'd go to sight-see and maybe snowboard (if I ever learned how).


    4.) California-  Anaheim has numerous beaches to visit.  San Francisco has a really cool trolley to ride, not the mention the Golden Gate Bridge.  Los Angeles has a lot of shopping opportunities.  SO, all in all, I think CA would be fun to visit.


    5.) A Real Life Castle in Romania-  Okay, castles are amazing.  What would be even cooler is DRACULA'S CASTLE! Right?!


    6.)  Cape Cod-  I was once told my disgust of all things seafood would easily be changed to love if I were to ever eat in Cape Cod.  I'd like to see.  Also, lighthouses are pretty and there's a ton of them there.



    7.)  Machu Piccu would be awesome.  I like the designs the Mayan, Aztecs, and Incans made.  They were geniuses with their crazy fancy layouts and designs.  Just like the Egyptians.  That would be another awesome place to go to.



    8.) Italy.  All over Italy.  Venice, Sicily, Rome, Milan.  Anywhere and everywhere. I'm a big fan of Italian cuisine so I'd go just for the food.  Yeah, I really am THAT much of a fat kid.

     
    9.) England.  A big portion of my family is from England on my mother's side of the family so I'd like to go back to where we originated.



      
    10.)  Paris.  Oh, Paris.   I'd MOVE here if I could.  I've been drawn to France since I was a little girl.  No place on Earth is more dazzling in my eyes.  Everything seems so quaint and beautiful.  The people are lovely; the culture is amazing. The scenery is just so romantic. I'd spend a day alone at the Cafes.  Then another day at The Louvre. Simply put, this would be the first place I would save to go to.





    I am BY NO MEANS financially able to go to any of these places right away but I'd love to see more of the world before I die.   I want to take in all the culture that I can and make myself a more rounded person.  I'm a big food critic-  I want to eat everywhere I go.  I want to experience things like a gondola ride in Venice or a Zip-Line in the Amazon that I'll never forget.  There's a million things that I want to do in my life; a good bit of them regard travel.  So, I'm probably leaving out a lot of places I'd like to see but these are the top 10.

Tuesday, 09 February 2010

  • Haven't had much time (or power) these past few days.

    I started thinking this morning,  if snow storm (part 2!) comes along tonight there's no possible way I'm going to get out of Wellsburg to get to work.  Now I already called off last Friday because I got stuck on Washington Pike due to numerous accidents and a road closure so I couldn't make it in. They're going to get pretty irritated with me being that this is only my second week there.  What can I do though?  I'm not risking my life to get to work.  That would be stupid!  I'm going to miss the hours on my paycheck though! There goes my new laptop out the window, I suppose.

    In the latest breaking news,  my cousin Lynn had her baby.  I was awfully worried about her Sunday afternoon because my sister had called and said they were rushing her to Pittsburgh to have the baby because she went into early labor and her blood pressure was sky rocketing.  Three very bad things:  premature labor + high blood pressure + Pittsburgh (anyone from this area knows that if they take you to Pittsburgh it's REALLY serious).  Thankfully, at around 2 AM Monday morning she delivered the baby, Dylan James.  Although they're keeping him for a few weeks because he's premature he's doing very well.  Lynn is doing fine as well and gets to come home Wednesday they say.   I'll post a pic at the end of this of the new baby.

    So my power was off the entire weekend.  I had the weekend off from work and didn't really get to enjoy it.  Friday I went to bed with power; Saturday I woke up without.  They didn't fix it until Monday afternoon and by then I was getting ready for my pre-work nap and then heading off to ol' Walmart for a night of fun--ahem* stocking.  So there goes my time off.  And I guess if this snow storm heads back for another round the power might go back out again.  They don't know for sure--but they did say that they didn't have enough durable equipment to keep it up and that it was only a temporary fix until another storm knocked it out.  Go figure.

    Oh, and speaking of work--I have to say I worked rather ridiculously hard last night.  It was beyond my abilities.  I got put in with a new girl (I'm new too, but this girl was on her very first day) and a new lady from another store.  Drove me absolutely insane too I might add.  I don't know if the lady from the other store was one of the numerous people they threw at us from downstate since all of our good old people are at the new location stocking the super-center or what, but she thought she knew every single thing there was to know.  She said she'd worked at Wal-Mart for awhile and kept trying to give me pointers but they were things I'd already learned so it was repetitive and mundane.  Then luckily, I got moved to housewares which I was working by myself but it was SOOO much better than working with someone who kept frequently getting on your nerves.  What sucked though was that they moved me right back into foods with that lady for the rest of the night and she kept trying to tell me what to do and making me do all the work.  Well,  that didn't last because at about 6:55 I told her that I was done.  My shift ended at 7 and you absolutely have to clock out on time plus, my ride was going to be there.  She got pretty angry but oh well.  I'll probably get written up or something for not finishing.   I just couldn't wait to get out of there.

    They're predicting anywhere from 5-10 inches by tomorrow.  Gahhh. C'mon summer!  Can't we get summer started a few months early this year?  That would be much appreciated.

    I don't have much else to write about so hopefully my ranting doesn't bore the poo out of everyone.  I just thought it was about time for an update.  It's been a few days.  I'll update again eventually.


    Dylan James, as I promised.  Oh, and that's my Aunt Lila as well.



Tuesday, 02 February 2010

  • Don't wanna be just like you.

      So I have decided it's time to make some modifications to my appearance.  I would like to start being more of my own person rather than letting my friends and family decide who I am.  What I mean is, dad, you're gonna be pretty upset once I start getting money in.  And Ambyre,  you'll think I'm a mess, but I'll be a damn hot mess.

    First things first,  I want this girl's haircolor.  I have no idea who she is but she in a way reminds me of Liz Lee of the MTV reality show "My Life As Liz".  Anyway, I like it.  It's edgy and extremely adorable. 

    And this,  I've been in need of glasses for quite some time.  I've always had a soft spot in my heart for thick black frames.  I just hadn't tried them out for myself yet.  So, I think I'm going to do this.  I might also get a lip piercing to match?  Extreme?  Oh well.

    What it all boils down to is I'm the type of girl who likes to add edge to her style.  I like...scratch that, LOVE Hot Topic.  I like bondage pants, bright haircolors, and those big bulky platform boots with the chains and studs all over them.  I dig piercings  and self expression.  Deep down I'm a creative artsy person and I've had that person hidden for quite some time because I haven't had the funding to really take care of myself.  With this job I'll be able to.  I'm going to hold on to this paycheck.

    Feedback?

Wednesday, 27 January 2010

  • Friendship and the Walmart rant.

    Friendship.  Let's see what the definition of friendship really is.  According to Wikipedia:

    Friendship is the cooperative and supportive relationship between people. In this sense, the term connotes a relationship which involves mutual knowledge, esteem, affection, and respect along with a degree of rendering service to friends in times of need or crisis. Friends will welcome each other's company and exhibit loyalty towards each other, often to the point of altruism. Their tastes will usually be similar and may converge, and they will share enjoyable activities. They will also engage in mutually helping behavior, such as the exchange of advice and the sharing of hardship. A friend is someone who may often demonstrate reciprocating and reflective behaviors. Yet for some, the practical execution of friendship is little more than the trust that someone will not harm them.

    Value that is found in friendships is often the result of a friend demonstrating the following on a consistent basis:

    • the tendency to desire what is best for the other
    • sympathy and empathy
    • honesty, perhaps in situations where it may be difficult for others to speak the truth,  especially in terms of pointing out the perceived faults of one's counterpart
    • mutual understanding

    Source: 
    http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Friendship



          Just wanted to post that definition.  Maybe my so-called best friend will stumble upon this blog, read it, and realize that she lacks 90% of the qualities a good friend has.  But enough drama.  I'm not into all that.
          Tomorrow I have my orientation for Walmart.  Yay?  It's paid, thankfully.  So I'll get paid something like $60 to sit and watch videos about the history of the store and to tour the store.  Then I'm on to bigger and better things...overnight grocery stocking.  I was thinking an overnight job would be the best bet because I have such a social anxiety.  I don't like to be around crowds because it typically leads to anxiety attacks.  Now I'm starting to wonder when I'll get time to sleep.  Haha,  work at night and school during the day?  Della didn't think this one through.   Oh well.
            It's going to be so nice to have money to spend.  Don't get me wrong.  Grandma Jessie often gives me money for spending but it's not nearly enough to get my own place or to pay the college the money I owe them.  I'd love, love, love to make a down payment on a house and get my own place within this year. Plus, I'm female.  The temptation to go shopping and buy hundreds of dollars worth of clothing, makeup, and jewelry does exist; it's just been well hidden.
            I'm trying to decide on what I want to do when I start over at college this coming fall.  I absolutely adore the IT teacher at the college.  She's a very wonderful woman.  However, the artist inside can't help but want to go into web design.  I really, really enjoy designing websites.  I enjoy being self-expressive.  I love to exhibit creativity.  It calms me.  It's been way too long since I sat down and sketched something, or painted something, or even wrote something that was completely for my own enjoyment.  Web design could be my dream career.  Then again, how many times have I changed my mind on my major?  IT could be good too though.  It'd be something I'd more than likely enjoy doing during my life--however, I would get bored of the bookwork and probably give up. Sometimes it sucks to be a hands on learner.
             Anyway, that's all I had to say for right now anyway.

             But really, does anyone even read this?


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    • Name: Della
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    • Birthday: 11/11/1988
    • Gender: Female
    • Member Since: 12/22/2006

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